So I guess my blog needs to have an "I love you Mom (and Dad)" right? Then maybe in the future when I am upset I can come back and read about my parents to remind me of how much I could hate/love them at the same time.
I've been complaining about how I can't wait to land in China. For the past month I've just been completely bombarded with criticisms from my mom and I have never hated hearing my name so much in my entire life! No one's around to be my mom's bitch so I'm stuck being her bitch. And I guess I'm not the only one who feels this way, but this woman likes to keep busy and I understand that, but sometimes she just needs to chill. I've been talking back and saying mean things because my bottle is full to the rim. Just too much nagging and bossing me around and so much "You Sucks!" (not literally), but they are totally bashing my self-esteem! I have gotten so used to being my own person for the past 4 years that I cannot go back to this lifestyle, so I really really just need to get out of the house.
But even with all this, I have unconditional love for her because she supports me education and career wise and I love that. Just wish she wasn't faced with so many stressors in life so she could be more relaxed and then I wouldn't feel so frustrated in the house. I guess my dad isn't around much that he doesn't stress me out, but I can feel his love even though he doesn't agree with my future plans. There's a lot to talk about, but I'll save that for some other time. I just want to remind myself that I love them dearly and I would not know what to do if I lost them. I would be completely lost...I love you both!
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